My demons took control of me

Dear Cary,

I behaved monstrously and, like an inmate living on death row, I am only surviving on the dim hope that I will be forgiven. Am I delusional? First, a few details. I had an affair with my spouse's good friend. Our families were friends. Our young children played together. I lied and cheated and did things of which I never thought I was capable. When caught I lied and obfuscated… » Full Story on Salon.com